Tuesday, April 27, 2010

So school is almost out. just 18 more days until graduation. I cannot wait. I have non idea what i want to do but i am really excited for it. i dont know why i decided to blog right now but it was probably to put off my15 page paper even further. ugh. 18 18 18 18 18 .
cant wait!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Things were definitely meant to be like this.

The other day I hung out with Greg. We played tennis. The last time we saw eachother before that was i think in November and that was when he accidently sat next to me in the library. We havent hung out hung out probably since halloween I think. Kind of weird but anyways. we went to play tennis. it was odd...like i was comfortable and i had fun but we are just so different. I cant imagine being with him like i use to be. he kept saying things that were still hurtful. Saying I was clingy (also saying thats not always a bad thing) but i just think its weird how he had thought that all along yet never said it to me until our relationship went completely downhill. The most hurtful thing he said was wehen I asked him if he was relieved when I broke up with him that day....he said "im not even gonna say anything" its like that day i thought would have killed him but on the inside he was really thinking "Thank God" eck. i hate that. But then it made me realize even more so what I have with Chris now. This uy who is just my ultimate dream. I have never been told so many times that I am pretty without having to ask first. I never have to beg for him to hold me or to look at me or to go out with me. We have fun. The other day we were having lunch with my cousin maria and we were telling her about how we flew a kite the other day and how we wanted to go on a bike ride and she was like "you guys are just so awesome, you guys are always doing stuff teogether and it never has to do with getting drunk like all of your old friends." I was so happy because its true. Chris and I have the best time together even if it is just flying a kite in the park. I love that he loves stuff like that too its really nice. Anyways Greg then asked me what i was doing after graduation. I started to tell him how i wanted to apply at google and other companies and he basically would only say things that had to do with me NOT getting a job there. "Dont get your hopes too high now" I probably heard him say that a million times. I had to stop that convo quick. Then i ask about his brother and i guess his brother is thinking about asking his ex out. Greg kept saying "i dont want them to go out because they have a bad relationship like we did" its sad because i still look back at our relationship and think of it as a good thing. no regrets....until i start hearing his regrets. Anyways, ggraduation is close. Im excited. can't wait. life is amazing. i am still the luckiest girl alive.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Been a long time

So, its been a while since I have blogged. I have been pretty busy with school and work and everything else. So chris hasnt left yet because is he just getting over the mono. So he is not sure if he is going to Europe at all. Its a bitter sweet feeling because Im happy he gets to stay but im sad because I know he was excited to race. He is thinking they might put him in small races here nationally for right now to train and hopefully put him in the tour of california. That would be so amazing if he got torace in that race because I would get to go wtih his family to follow the race. For right now, he is just taking it one day at a time.
So...5 weeks until I graduate. So weird. I really cant believe that I am finally done with school in 5 short weeks. I am really excited though. I am applying to a ton of places and I am really excited for the next step in life. I am so happy and I feel like things are really going in the right direction for me.

Nichole got married last weekend. It was so beautiful. I was happy cause Chris got to go with me. I am really happy for her. She seems to really love Ben so I like him too because of theat. I hjope I get to know him a little better.

ok. hand cramp. BYe